I've always thought that the things that happen, happen for a reson. When a bird flys south for the winter it goes because it's animal insintinct tells them that the cold weather is coming and they have to go some were they can live in peace were the the weather wont effect them. When there is a break up people say that its for the better. But now... what can i say, this that happened to me has no explanation... it happened, but why? 

Can it be possible? you tell me, i've been friends with a guy for about 3 year now, and we've done many thigns together, we've laughed, we've cried , played jokes on eachother, we've even gotten in trouble once or twice together during school hours. With him i used to do many things that i could even do with any of my best friends. When ever i was with him i felt like i feel with any of my friends: normal and just doing things for the fun of doing it.

Now when ever i'm even close to him i don't feel the same, i feel as if a black endless hole is eating up my insides. I'm not sure if whats going on, all i know is that i cant even look at him because i get all red and shy around him. all i know is that after one of my x-best friends ( we fought over somthing that has nothing to do with this) broke up with him i feel this way, now what i feel has nothing to do with what happened in between them and that of sure of.So why do i feel this way?? Its such a strange feeling, all i want to do is regain out friendship that we had that was so tight  and discover why i feel this way... 

                                                                      F.S!